https://ra9dev.github.io/gaming/blog rA9gaming Blog 2026-02-26T00:00:00.000Z https://github.com/jpmonette/feed rA9gaming Blog https://ra9dev.github.io/gaming/img/favicon.ico <![CDATA[Am I done with the games?]]> https://ra9dev.github.io/gaming/blog/im-done 2026-02-26T00:00:00.000Z My BIG problem is that gamedev means way more to me than just a hobby, but no matter what angle I approach it from, I’m extremely bad at making games — YET I CANNOT simply give up and quit.

A short list of my failures:

  • 2 failed playtests on Steam
  • 2 failed demos on Steam (hey, I actually got further than playtests!)
  • 5 unfinished game jams on itch.io
  • ~25 dead prototypes in UE5
  • ~5 dead prototypes in Godot

Like many others, I DREAMED of making a simple, fun little game, releasing it, and earning at least some money. But even that hope died about six months ago.

DUMB

And yet here I am, literally standing on completely scorched earth, somehow still believing I can create an oasis.

Since it’s already obvious that I’ll die before I ever quit this, I’ve decided to turn my entire bumpy, crater-filled journey into an online monument. Whether it ends up being a tragicomedy that warns beginners away, or a story with a happy ending — that depends only on what happens next.

For now, this post is just me admitting to myself: the only jam I will never skip is my own lifelong jam.

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